This & That

Only about 3 1/2 more weeks left of the semester and it cannot come fast enough!! The stress I have gone through in the last few weeks is unlike anything I've ever been through... definitely not fun. Life is too short to be stressed like I have been. It makes me feel guilty because I know I haven't been enjoying my family like I should be. It really boils down to this entrepreneurship class that I loathe- I guess everyone has to go through one or two classes like this that really shouldn't be this difficult, but that are nonetheless. I know worrying about something does no good, but I can't flip that worry switch off for some reason. Our professor has required us to come up with a unique product (something that has not been done before) and "pretend" we're business owners and write a business plan around this company. She wants it to be as realistic as possible and she prefers it to be very science/technology oriented. This is not my forte. Anyway, I just can't wait for it to be over with. A celebration will definitely be in store December 9th!!

So what is little Caroline up to these days? I am realizing she is very strong willed and very independent! Most of the time she wants nothing to do with cuddling Momma... she wants to be down on the ground exploring the world! Then there are nights like tonight where she really doesn't want me to put her down. It's rare that she acts like that, so I eat it up! Lately I have only had a couple of hours a day with her and it doesn't feel like enough. This upcoming Christmas break is going to be FANTASTIC... I'll have like 5 weeks off with no work, no school... just me and Caroline doing whatever we please! I plan on organizing Caroline's closet and our guest room closet.

Have y'all started your Christmas shopping? What is on your wish list this year? I'm trying to think of things we need for the house... maybe some guest bedroom furniture? It is in need of some adult furniture... it looks like a college kid's room... it only has a couple of filing cabinets... a bed with no headboard/foot board and a cheap desk that I'm going to get rid of b/c it's huge and takes up too much space in that little room. I just can't decide if I should ask for a bedside table or a small desk for the room. The other thing that I would really love to get is a dresser for our bedroom. We need some drawer space desperately!

And because it's no fun to write a post with no pictures or video, here is a fun video Dan took of Caroline a couple weeks ago. For some reason she thinks its funny when I put my ponytail in her face... weird I know.

The cutest little fishy-face!

Here goes a not fun post.... we found out Tuesday that baby Henry had no heartbeat. I ordered a doppler and got it a little over a week ago. I knew it would be a little early to hear the heartbeat, but I heard Caroline's around 10 weeks (if I'm remembering correctly) so I hoped I would be able to do the same with this baby. I searched several times for the heartbeat over the last week and wasn't able to find anything. I really wasn't that worried but I made an appointment anyway just to be safe. Dan went with me and the doctor couldn't find the heartbeat with his doppler (no surprise there). He said since the baby is still so small, this is normal. He sent us to the sonogram lady and when she did the ultrasound I knew pretty quickly. The sad part was that you could see baby... but no flickering or beating heart. Baby measured about 8 weeks so I guess his or her heart stopped beating about 2 weeks ago.

Dan and I are handling it well, as we did with our first miscarriage... but it is still very sad. I've wondered a few times if we will see this baby and our first in heaven one day. It makes you wonder what the purpose is behind it all, but I know we just can't understand everything here on earth.